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living sober

Rigorous Action

April 28, 2010

I am meeting with a sponsee tomorrow that I have not seen in months. He does some things real well, like going to meetings and calling me most days. Yet he is really balking at working the steps. He has had a lot of challenges. Things like operations are in fact fairly big deals for [...]

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A Babe in the Woods

April 1, 2010

My son is a little over five weeks old today. He is sleeping in a bassinet basket by my side. This experience of having a son, a child, is so very interesting. I could not imagine for a moment what it would be like to be drunk and oblivious to him and to myself. There [...]

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Getting the Answer

October 17, 2009

Today I was told I would be offered an exciting new job I had been hoping I would get. It is a few years of work, with some of the top people in my field. One of them is a world class scientist, with lots of awards and even a Pulitizer for a book he [...]

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Sponsee Sponsor

July 8, 2009

I make the conscious choice to be free, and to hold my freedom as a priority, not to be compromised.
Passing it on. Three related bits of my sober life.
1. I asked someone to sponsor me last night. Thank goodness. I woke up today feeling much freer than I have in a long time. I’m going [...]

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And for that: I am NOT responsible

June 13, 2009

photo by redjar
Anyone who is involved in getting sober in AA, and by getting sober I mean is working the steps with a sponsor and is involved in service, is familiar with our Responsibility Declaration. “I am responsible. When anyone, anywhere, reaches out for help, I want the hand of A.A. always to [...]

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Getting out, physically and figuratively

March 22, 2009

I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.
Nelson Mandela
Last Sunday I got away from myself. Finally. I have been living in fear and letting it run my life. I’m twenty one [...]

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The Last Words I Ever Say

December 10, 2008

photo GiselaGiardino
Does it matter what you say? No it doesn’t, as long as you do not care about the words you use or the thoughts you express.
Not thinking about my actions is old school bullshit. And my actions include what I have to say. Living as an active alcoholic, I largely said what I [...]

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21

December 7, 2008

Today is the 21st anniversary of my sobriety. Amazing!

photo Jessica Driver
It is still chilling to remember this time, twenty-one years ago now, and what that was like. I so fervently hope I never have to feel and experience most of what happened, and how I felt then, ever again.
The ironic thing is in [...]

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